-still unsatisfied

hear my cry
anger rages
within a vessel
contained

thats me,
what i can endure
little in comparison
to those before

allowing
the beatdown
of my mind
unrelenting

a storm broods
expanding within
lose sight, mind
where to begin

no connection
no sleep
no gratitude
nothing.

discontent
hateful intent
welcome to reality.
go burn in hell.

-nate

the question.

Do they even know?

downcast trodden,

rejected, abandoned

betrayed, beaten.

cold, constant

tiresome, never ceasing
wind, unrelenting
falling, spiral.

and he dreams
of a place
further away
from here,

-nate

+well of bitterness

This is it.
On the brink.
Life suddenly
Different
Distant.
Inside breaks apart
As waves wash upon the shore
Slowly being beat down
Over and over.
What used to be no longer is
And thus it is no more.
People I knew
People I don’t
They’re not that different.
Force a smile, as it is overdue.
Its pathetic.
Tense
I can’t bring myself to feel.
Others joy, when not my own.
Selfish, Cold
Alone.
That’s me.
Standing on the edge,
Behind, what used to be.

Sorry.
I really am.

-Nate.

run-

Heard the forest sigh
Under the night time sky
And it was at that time
I wished I could fly
Away from here
Far away,
Nowhere near
Her smile

As the tide rolls in
Please let me begin
To understand
A couple of things,
Why this heart of mine
Beats out of time
Irregular
To her

Ever feel like giving up
Ever feel like bailing out
Always running away
Please show me what life is all about

All these little things
Stuck inside my mind
All I want to do,
Leave it all behind

Just leave it all

-nate

double double

how good is this,
life right now,
exams next week,
i dont know how,
to do this work,
so i study more,
but studying,
is such a bore,
the girl i like,
is just a friend,
i wish sometimes,
God would lend,
me a hand,
just let me bail,
for what i fear,
is to fail.

nate

come with.

Heard your laugh,
Made me smile,
Wish you could
Have stayed a while,
Miss you lots,
Wish I was home
Cause then I could have
Lost my phone,
Lined up for a while,
Wait in que,
To have a chance
To talk to you,
Then I’d hug you
And out of mirth
I’d steal you away,
Back to perth.

And you can make me dinner cause im hopeless.

-nate

songbird

heard the call
it came last night,
danced through trees,
rode with the wind,
full moon above,
lit up the sky,
the clouds dispersed
and so did my
inside thoughts
that flew around,
rebounding in my mind.
its crazy how,
one solitary thing,
can captivate
your total attention.
tried to respond,
but i was too far
away from
anyone or anything.
so i walked toward
the sound i heard
alert with every step.
listening
as i travelled
minutes became years,
and as i approached
this lovely sound,
pure music
filled my ears.
and there she stood.

-nate

aquaintance

A string of words,
Numb my mind,
Look all you want,
Theres nothing to find,

Don’t understand,
Can’t quite see,
What’s the point?
You can’t trust me.

It makes me sad,
I really miss you,
Bailing away,
It wasn’t even true,

Distorted mindset,
Words I never said,
Firing around,
It’s all in your head.

I told you myself,
You can trust me,
But for some strange reason you can’t.

Lates.

Nate.